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Love is a problem itself. I know some of you are happily living with your love ones or currently having a meaningful relationship. But others are not. (Clears throat) See, there’s no perfect relationship. You may be in good terms right now but along the way you may encounter trials. Problems exist; as love exists. These may be small or worst, big. So, be careful handling it.

I know some of you are in great deal of heartache or pain right now. Honestly, I have been there too. And I am not going to tell you how painful it is ‘cause I know you know it too well.

Funny, I realized how bitter I was. And I imagined how crazy and psycho I was before. Haha! Good thing my head didn’t gave up.

Before, I have hard time of waking up and rolling out of bed in the morning. I turned off or skipped songs on my music player because every song is painful and reminds me of her. I can’t even bear to eat to the same restaurants I took her to. Sometimes, I binge eating for comfort. I even constantly check my email or mobile phone to see if she has sent me a message, think constantly why she really left, and felt massively depressed. Back then, everything in me had fallen apart. But, I am OK now.

If love failed, please know that this is not our fault. We weren’t thought this in school, right? We weren’t taught by our parents…and there is no “love fails” or “how to cope when love failed?” lessons in any classes.

The real problem about love is that it can never be learn even by the most intelligent men in the planet. This can not be learn by reading books, watching movies, listening to music, sitting in on a lecture or by reading blog entries like this. Love... Love is ONLY learn by heart.

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Being bothered by the noisy wind, I plugged the headset on my mobile phone and listened to music.

I was very worried about the storm yesterday. I was on the hospital; having my 10pm-6am duty. The wind was so strong that the door keeps on wobbling. I saw on the glass window how the wind bends trees and the rain flooded the road.

Many staffs had called and informed the supervisors that they won’t be able to go to work due to the bad weather. I was very anxious because I may work overtime or have straight duty due to understaffing. I’m glad it didn’t happen. The next ICU nurse on duty that day came in spite of the bad weather. After the endorsement, I hurriedly went out and prepare my umbrella. There are seldom jeepneys passing by and so I waited long for a ride.

After long minutes, a jeepney stopped. Because the rain was too heavy, I ran fast under my umbrella so I won’t get awfully wet. But as I was running, my new cell phone slept out of my pocket. Oh no! It fell and was dragged by the outpouring ground. I tried to catch it but the water current was too strong. So quick, it disappeared.

I felt miserable. Who wouldn’t? It was a birthday gift from my mom. I only used that phone for 5 days…and now, it’s gone. I am so STUPID.

Labels: fall, life, me, sad, sentiment

Because you’ve gone and left me standing all alone,
And I know, I’ve got to face tomorrow on my own.


Everything just fell apart.

It’s been almost half a year since you decided to end it up. For months, I’ve been trying to bring back what we had before. I was hoping to be yours again. I was looking for a place in your heart. I don't know if I am still there. I felt confused. All I did was to wait. There were times I can't sleep. I can't eat. And I can't even laugh. There are times I feel so down and don't know where to go. I'd been trying to go back but everything had changed. And now...I already accepted it.

There's no more "us." And, I am almost used to it.

You know I had never felt for someone like you. You're the biggest surprise of my life. I won't regret the times we shared together and the happiness you brought to my life. You made me a better person. I felt the sweetest warmth during those times you were at my side. I had been in the safest place with your arms. For two years, you had taught me many things about life.

Even though you took away everything from me, I won't regret the things I did, the words I said, and the love I fought for. Because from now on, I'll try not to risk it all anymore and save some for myself. I am not going to be afraid to say goodbye even if it hurts. But I'll stay true to myself and do everything that I have to do...'Cause I know, there are reasons for these things and reasons for the pasts. I will still love even until it hurts me again... And be happy until I cry again. For when my life flashes before I die, I know, I'll be happy for what I did.

If love fails, I have to set myself free. Now, I am letting my heart breaths its life again. I may find love and lose it. But when love dies, I never have to die with it.

Labels: fall, life, sad, sentiment

I woke up early this morning, ate my breakfast, and went on my desktop.

Yeah, I know. It's another dreary entry again. My blog is probably so boring as compared to yours. I am more-like, "Oh, I made pancakes today!" I wish I could write something interesting...something entertaining.

I had a good-looking weekends, but nothing awesome happened. Like...

Last Friday, I ate Ensalada Azteca. Wow! It was really good. (So what?)

Last Saturday, I went to Calamba Market and brought a dozen of eggs. (Who cares?)

Last Sunday, I did errands. (Bring a book!)

Oh, I forgot: I learned that Nike manufactured its first sneakers in 1972. (Uhm, nobody finds this fascinating as I do.)

Enough. As I told you before, never push your fingers to type words if there's nothing to say. Or else, you'll end up with just a-- non-sense entry like this one... ta ta!

Labels: boring, fall, non-sense

We were as one, babe, for a moment in time. And it seemed everlasting that you would always be mine. Now you want to be free. So, I’m letting you fly. 'Cause i know in my heart, babe, our love will never die. No.

You’ll always be a part of me. I’m a part of you indefinitely. Girl, don’t you know you can’t escape me. Ooh darling, 'cause you’ll always be my baby. And we’ll linger on. Time can’t erase a feeling this strong. No way you’re never gonna shake me. Ooh darling, 'cause you’ll always be my baby.

I ain’t gonna cry. No. And I won’t beg you to stay. If you’re determined to leave, girl, I will not stand in your way. But inevitably, you’ll be back again. 'Cause you know in your heart, babe,
our love will never end. No.

You’ll always be a part of me. I’m a part of you indefinitely. Girl, don’t you know you can’t escape me. Ooh darling, 'cause you’ll always be my baby. And we’ll linger on. Time can’t erase a feeling this strong. No way you’re never gonna shake me. Ooh darling, 'cause you’ll always be my baby.

I know that you’ll be back, girl. When your days and your nights get a little bit colder. Ooohhh, I know that you’ll be right back. Oh, baby, believe me, it’s only a matter of time.

You’ll always be a part of me. I’m a part of you indefinitely. Girl, don’t you know you can’t escape me. Ooh darling, 'cause you’ll always be my baby. And we’ll linger on. Time can’t erase a feeling this strong. No way you’re never gonna shake me. Ooh darling, 'cause you’ll always be my...my baby.

You’ll always be a part of me. You will always be. I’m a part of you indefinitely. Girl, don’t you know you can’t escape me. Ooh darling, 'cause you’ll always be my baby. And we’ll linger on. We will linger on. Time can’t erase a feeling this strong. No way you’re never gonna shake me. Ooh darling, 'cause you’ll always be my baby.

Oh, always be my baby…

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